Wednesday, May 7, 2008

What should I do?

I just finished my 2 years studies of diploma in TAR College and right now I am waiting for my results. I do not mind for not getting "A". I just hope that I can pass all my subjects. In the mean time, I am worrying about something. I am thinking of what should I do after this? Should I continue my study or should I come out to work? I know with a diploma's certificate, I cannot find for a very good job but what can I do? I already have no mood to study. Bored of travelling every week from Seremban to KL. Bored of waking up early in the morning. And bored of walking from hostel to college everyday. Besides that, I am a very lazy girl. Every time when exams are near, I see all my friends study very hard but I just cannot sit quietly and study. I always do last minute study. It is very stressing and tiring! All my friends think I am smart, last minute study also can pass my papers. But do they know I actually have more stress than they had? They used 1 to 2 weeks time to study 1 subject but I only used 1 to 2 days! I am not blaming on anyone. Just that I am not as smart as what they think. It is my own problem of being lazy. But this habit cannot be changed. What can I do? This is why I am giving up on studying and thinking of start working. Besides that, I think my family also cannot support me anymore. Many of them including my friends keep on asking me to continue my study but I do not want to troublesome my family. Can anyone tell me what should I do? Study or work? I got think of continuing my study later after I have earned enough money from working. But there are people who say after you had come out and work, you will not have the mood to study anymore. I know if I continue study to a higher level, it is good for my own future. But I really do not know how to decide. I want to study and I do not want to study. Do you get what I mean?

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